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| Did you know that the holy spirit truly has a presence? Maybe you do, but I've forgotten that it does.
I've turned away from God, Church, Christianity for a wordly life. I even began to think that this is what life really is- everything can be explained with science.
On my vacation to Hawaii, I thought it would be another fun-filled getaway. However, one of my friends decided that we should go to church, and I begrudgingly followed. (To keep up with appearances...as bad as that sounds)
It turned out to be the best decision I've ever made. I was so amazingly humbled and filled with the holy spirit. Everything about the sermon, the praise, the pastor, and the people was so honest and sincere. I felt that God was reaching out to me, telling me to "come back, away from a sinful life" .
I cried out to God, and reached out my arms. It didn't seem enough- I wanted more. I wanted to break down and sob. I was broken. I realized what kind of life I was living- one that was empty with no meaning or purpose; One filled with negative emotions, and judgments.
Although the sermon was simple, and the praise was average; it was monumental for me. It was the moment that I reconnected with God; with my creator; my father.
How did I end up here? why was I so far away from God? What was it that made me return? What does God have in store for me?
I feel as though I am beginning to change, and am excited for the day that people can see Jesus' love through my actions. I am beginning to walk very slowly to the path that God has created for me.
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| So now that I've graduated, (FINALLY) it's time for me to find a "standard" 9-5, m-f. I'm actually really relived to move on with life. The next chapter in life; the beginnings of actual adulthood. I've been applying to a multitude of places, and it's actually very nerve wracking waiting for a response. Before, I never really worried about getting a job, because it was all entry level. But now it seems so much...bigger.
The biggest emotion that I'm feeling right now is excitement. I'm so happy to be leaving retail. My current job has made me hate people. I sincerely hate people, and all their whining and complaining. (hahaha, as I complain right now.)
But generally, why can't people be more happy, and satisfied? Why must they feel that they have to release their anger at someone completely unrelated in order to feel like something will be accomplished?!?
I've become so burnt out with constantly smiling, and serving when in reality it's nearly impossible to treat each customer that way. (I hate, hate, hate it)... Hopefully, I won't be dealing with retail in the future..... Or I'm going to take a loooong hiatus from it.....My job right now, is NOT God-friendly.
Anyhoo... Thought I'd drop in... and say hello.
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| Hi.
This is my feeble attempt at an entry.
While driving, I had some sort of epiphany. I realized that as I am getting older, the more I look forward to life and it's adventures.
Maybe it's a 1/4 life crisis coming early; i don't know. But I want to enjoy my life to the fullest- the way God intended me to. I want to ride a motorcycle, jump off jumps when I snowboard, hike beautiful paths, enjoy the sunshine, the scenery... I want to be like a yoga master- in ZEN MODE 24/7.
It's a funny thing, because I remember almost dreading life during high school. (Ah, the EMO-ness of high school, and the endless amounts of unbalanced hormones that comes along with it.)
The only thing that stops me from FULLY appreciating my life is 1) the hopeless looking economy= money crunch 2) my job. I love my coworkers (sometimes), but for the most part dealing with customers all the time, and bending to their every need has certainly wore me down. I definitely lack servitude to people I deem "unworthy".
I used to think that I wanted to get married, have children, and start my "own life" right away. As as time passes, I realize that I want to stay in this moment. I know now that I'm not ready to shoulder the responsibility of having my own family. A friend of mine asked me "Why aren't you getting married, when you know WHO you're gonna marry?" My answer? I'm not ready. I just want to LIVE!!! why is everyone so eager to get married?! Live in the moment. It's wonderful.
BTW. FOTC is the best. EVER. who makes up this stuff? I need to shake their hands.( Yes, I said handS, and I mean it.)
"They call me the Hiphopopotamus
Flows that glow like phosphorous
Poppin' off the top of this esophagus
Rockin' this metropolis
I'm not a large water-dwelling mammal
Where did you get that preposterous hypothesis?
Did Steve tell you that, perchance?
Steve."
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| So, I've been MIA for about two weeks thanks to the cold. Then... As SOON as I recovered from my cold, I caught something WORSE! I... was... suffering.
What made it better for me was experiencing my mom's TLC.
She would make me soup, and bring me water and medicine before she went to work, and made sure to make enough so I could heat it up for lunch, and then come back from work to make me dinner. (Or try to make me eat it) with a reminder to eat my medicine. I felt like I was an elementary schooler again. it was nice.
Another lil tidbit.
So I became frustrated with our DSL, and our bunny ear antenna TV, so I decided to pay for cable internet, and TV from comcast. Initially, my parents vehemently disapproved, but now they love it. Out of ALL the channels, they like the Sci-fi channel. (So strange!) Anyway, my mom has now been entrapped by those darned ads!, She purchased SHAMWOW, and PROACTIV and she's still keeping her eyes out for more....
So I tried the proactive because she thought it would even out my skin tone, and guess what?!?!... it made me break out!
Normally, I have pretty clear skin, and I use just about any ol' bar soap to wash my face.... but this stuff is GIVING my acne!..... something is not right. Anyway, I just got a wave of sleepiness. goodnight.
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| It's 1:10am, and I had a sudden urge to write in this decrepit thing.
I'm almost done with my undergraduate life, and I don't think I can wait any longer... I think it's ridiculous, because I'm done with all my Major requirements, and all the basic undergrad requirements... all I'm missing are a couple of random CREDITS. Don't you think that UW should just hand me my diploma, and get me out of school!? So frustrating... But then again it's not so bad. I get to take basically any class I want... for fun. and because I only need the credit for it, I can settle for a .07 for the class. (Abeit, it doesn't help my GPA at all... and thus is a little pointless.)
ANYWAY. I'm reading again. whoo. I forgot about my love of reading for a while. Probably with good reason. When I get into a book, I tune out everything around me. I don't eat, don't move, don't talk, just READ. My mom thinks it's kind of creepy... I actually do too; but I've improved! I can multitask when I'm reading now... so proud.
This year was my first time voting!.. I became a citizen just last year, so that's why I haven't voted before. Although, I was nervous because the polling place couldn't find me in their system. Because my name is spelled Han Na legally. funny.
Anyway. I'm feeling a little loopy now, cause I'm tired. toodles.
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